Gay Boy: Remember Who You Are

When you were in the womb, you were flooded with testosterone, the gritty stuff that makes rulers. You could barely sit still, you were kicking and fussing, begging for your release. Upon arrival, you were met with jubilee, and warm celebrations. A gathering was summoned to welcome this boy child. In another realm of your existence, you were met with sneers and envious smirks. Straight out of the gates, a hitman was hired, a ruthless assassin. The commands were simple and straightforward. Kill his masculine heart. What followed was a series of events meticulously lined up to rip you of your identity, whispers in the dark, to convince you that you are something that you are not. "Tell him the lie long enough and he will believe it", this has been the strategy used to shape public perceptions and to propagate evil agendas for many years. It is no surprise that the enemy of your soul would pull it on you.

Moses was born at a time when the Pharoah of Egypt was a cruel tyrant, he enslaved the people of God, he weighed them down with severe oppression. But there was something he feared. He was afraid that his subjects would eventually overpower him and rebel against him as they multiplied. He got to learn that the only way he could keep them from overthrowing his tyrannical rule was to kill the new generation of boy children. He gave orders to kill all the newborn baby boys.

If he can't kill you physically, he will intend to kill your masculine heart, he will distract it, or make you believe that it's not there. But the enemy of your soul will oppose you, and wish that you don't remember that you have the capacity to withstand and overcome him.

People are social creatures, we are the sum of our surroundings. When you hang around the girls a lot, you catch a lot of their tendencies, start to talk and walk like them, and pick up those girlie gestures. When this happens in your formative years, these tendencies seemingly become part of you. As a child you were overprotected, your people wouldn't let you climb trees, or play in the streets. They tried to shelter you from any form of danger, to remove the risk factor, the same thing that is supposed to release that masculine spirit. They shut you off; at first, it bothered you and made you mad. But eventually, you just gave in, made peace with it, and so you stayed with the girls at home and played with them. 

As you grew, you found it hard to relate to the grit that emitted from the boys. The girls would speak about crushing on boys, and it intrigued you as well. Your imagination sparked, and the enemy slipped that unnatural attraction in you. Your emotions got mixed in it, inflamed the passion and you called it love. At first, you felt it was wrong, and then you started to justify it. "How can it be so wrong if it feels so right". Birds of the same feathers flock together, and you'll always find someone to justify your lust. Burning in your passion for one another, you gave in to an unnatural affection.

For others, it started off as child play, playing how you shouldn't, and just like that feelings developed, and that spirit just got a grip on you and it wouldn't let you go. For others it was desperate times that led you to flirt with the devil, he promised you power, fame, and money but only if you would bend over. However, the way you got mixed up with this madness, it doesn't matter. The fact of the matter is you cannot give in and surrender to it. For you to justify it is like having a cobra slip under some carpet in your room and you convince yourself that because you can't see it, it's not there. If you don't face the enemy in all his dark power, he will secretly crouch on you and pounce on you on the hour you least expect him.

It is fair to understand the dilemma you face, to acknowledge it's reality but for you to give in to it will be to your detriment. Your passions and emotions are claiming you are gay but we all know that that is not the real you. You must remember who you are. Like Simba, you must awaken and take your place in the circle of life. He who breaks away from the ungodly norm and stands manfully in battle to fights against the forces that bind his soul will encounter the favorable assistance of the Most High God. He who surrenders himself to ungodly passions and sinister forces has already forfeited his soul and the grand destiny that God has intended for him. As it has been written, "Submit to God, resist the devil, and he will flee from you." Firstly you must be honest with yourself, acknowledge what's going on inside of you and humble yourself. Agree with God, the one who created you. God didn't create you a man to give you a feminine soul. And maybe you should stop letting the devil walk away freely the way you blame God for all your struggles. And stop thinking that your sin should be excused more than the others. I was once a criminal, a liar, a pervert, and a drunkard, but when I met with God, I had to agree with God and start fighting against my addictions, I had to accept the command for me to turn from my evil ways until the Lord helped me overcome them. Theres no doubting God's love for you my brother, it's more real than anything you know. You will learn He is all you have been looking for all along, but you were seeking in the wrong places, the places that got you stuck, and exposed to the dark. There's one thing I know of Him, the God of Heaven: He simply will not let you go without a warning, without a fight. That's how much he loves you. And yet still, you will not see and experience the vastness of his goodness and love for you until you submit yourself to his way.

I am not here to judge you, I am not here to comfort you in your delusion either. I am here to awaken the sleeping giant. That manly spirit that has caused men to wander in search of castles and giants. That spirit of gallantry and valor that has led man into uncharted territory, to fight for worthy causes, and to struggle for the beautiful maiden in distress. 

You will either settle for familiar territory that isn't the stuff you are born for and slowly just die off or you will listen to the voice of God, that all-time King, The Lord of the Earth and everything it, and believe what he says about you. You don't feel like a man, like a wounded animal, your manly spirit has retired to the back row, hiding in the shadows, afraid to commit, settling for the shallows, but that hard stuff is still in there, maybe buried under years of neglect, perhaps it has been marred by sin and fear, bruised by years of brutal oppression, but that animal is still in there.

You must therefore repent from your sins and turn from the lies you have believed. Believe in Jesus Christ, that your sins may be washed away, and so that you may receive the free gift of the holy spirit. So that refreshing times may come to you from the hand of the Lord. This promise is for you, your family, your communities and all those who are far off, as many as the Lord will call. As many as will believe, for there is nothing too hard for the one and only true God.